I never really knew what I wanted to do in life, I’ve always dance for fun, but I never thought this could be my full time Job.
I felt lost, lonely and small.
When I got accepted in the dance school in Barcelona, it seemed like another challenge, one more trip, and one more stage to live.
But when I arrived in my new flat, and said goodbye to my family who had helped me move, I felt so lonely.
Everything is still new for me, I’m still trying to adapt to this new way of life. It was not the first time that I lived alone, I’ve been living on my own for three years now and far from home, but this time I felt left out. I never knew why, maybe because it was a new country, another culture and a totally different world. I remember that I tried to talk to my Argentinian flat mate, it was impossible to understand her … it made me feel very odd, because I could speak Spanish, but I couldn’t understand none of the words she was saying. She went to her room and I went to mine, and cried for a long time. I ‘m still not sure why…
Maybe because of the distance, the country, everything was different … I remember that horrible flat, where there was no natural light in my room, and the crazy landlady … Everything was strange. I wasn’t feeling comfortable, although I told myself: Wake up! You got to live in Barcelona, it will be incredible.
The same thing happened at the dance studio, a lot of frustration. I quickly understood that it was super different from one country to the other, but to be honest it was the part I was the most interested in, although it was not easy every day.
An artist career is unstable but can also be very enterprising. After the training finished, I had to enter the professional world: teaching, casting, auditioning … and I found a new problem.
Sometimes I feel like I’m losing the flame that made me start dancing, I’m afraid of losing that passion and that it will become just in a working tool, like a program you put on a robot.
Now, with the current situation of social distancing that is happening all over the world I am trying to find that little flame that made me start, that makes my body moves with pleasure until I sweat it all out, because the most important thing for me is never stop dancing, no matter when or what…