I always knew I will leave my hometown one day. I knew I had to. I dreamt about being able to live somewhere else where people didn’t know me and I didn’t need to hide myself anymore. Because keeping secrets and hiding was a modus operandi for me for many years. But I also knew I wouldn’t be able to hide forever.
I was born in a small, provincial town in the South-East part of Hungary. From very early on, I felt I was drawn and attracted to boys and as I played dress-up with my grandma’s skirt and boots whenever I could, I figured out pretty quickly that I might be somewhat different. As it probably happened to most of us, I got picked on and bullied in different settings. It made very shy and cautious, but it also taught me to hide things about myself. I didn’t want to give any reason to people to ridicule or laugh at me.