Where do I even begin? At this very moment of my life, I am feeling very down, because it’s been 2 months since I decided to be on diet again. I have this complex about my body because I have very low confident about my physics. I have always hated my body. When I was 14 years old, I weighed 97 kg. Now I am only 65 kg, but still want to lose more weight. It’s like an obsession. I know it’s psychological but can’t help it. I have deleted all the photos of me in the past where I was a fat boy. Now I only eat once a day.  I think my past has a big influence on my perception and my confidence because there were some bad guys who made me feel worthless. Now I do look better. When I have my clothes on, I know I am fine but when I have to undress, it’s really difficult for me to feel comfortable. The standard of beauty in the gay community is another factor. I feel obliged to become thinner, more masculine and more fit in order to be attractive


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