Thoughts all over my mind. I am a Greek boy, born in Cyprus and raised in Greece, in the suburbs. I have always been different. Different than most of the people. You could see that. You could sense that. But I could not explain. Thoughts all over my mind. Puberty years were difficult. A strict family, but loving. Bullying at school. From day 1 till I graduated. But I prevailed. I made it to the university and I opened my wings. From the time I left my hometown I started finding myself, like a new-born. At the age of 19, I woke up one day and questioned myself out loud “Dimitris, are you gay?”. This was probably the most terrible summer of my life. Trying to see the truth which was right in front of my eyes. It was difficult. Till I saw the truth and I started embracing it. Growing in a small city it is even difficult to understand that is that.
Now that I am writing this story I am trying to pick a moment in my life but I can not. I want my life to be like that. Full of moments, memories, adventure.
After I finished my Bachelor’s I moved to Berlin. My second home. So many memories in this city. That was the period when I was truly free, truly myself. Those two years were eye-opening. I was told once from a friend “Berlin is the city where everything is allowed. You can be who you want to be and not being judged.” And that was true. Every day was a lesson. A sweet memory.
And here I am today. 12/03/24 on the bus to my hometown. Looking outside the window. The sea, the sun. Oh what a nice feeling. I love my country, but I would never come back. Thoughts in my mind. Today or tomorrow, I will talk to my father about me. My mom, my sis, friends and some relatives know about me. It’s time to talk to him too. I do not owe him an explanation. I just want to take it out of me because I want sincerity.
Embracing and loving yourself is not an easy job. I am 27, proud of who I am and celebrating myself every day. But I owe that to all the beautiful people who came along my way in the 27 years I have been walking on Earth. I have received so much love, so much care. My heart is exploding from all the love I have received. I am truly a blessed person. If I could mention each one person, the list would never end.
Spreading and receiving love is a reciprocal activity. Truly the most liberating one.
Thoughts all over my mind…
