I had always been shy, very timid and introvert. I was afraid of the world and what it could do to me. Many years of bullying made me want to be invisible, I didn’t wanna be seen nor heard.
I finally started getting out of my shell after moving to Berlin 8 years ago. I was always attracted to the nightlife, and I started going to clubs alone attending queer parties, as I was craving to know more people like me.
It’s been a wild ride, I discovered myself, my sexuality, I made friends, I met lovers, I danced, oh god I danced, I consumed, I consumed a lot, I consumed people and substances and I consumed myself, to the point that I lost myself, stuck in all aspects of life.
I slowed down when the world stopped, and I started loving myself more, I started realizing that I wasn’t like the rest, I didn’t want the same things, I didn’t want to be just a number, in work, in sex, in life. I wanted to make something of myself. I wanted to feel sexy, but on my terms, and focus on my wit and kindness.
I am different, and in this reality, it is as amazing as it is alienating, but I chose myself, and I’m choosing myself every single day. I realized I want to be seen, heard, and loved. I realized that strong is sexy, confident is strength, and funny is beauty. And I can be whoever and whatever I want, anytime and anywhere, and I’ll be happy, as long it’s my own choice and decision.