In the last few years I’ve been reading a lot about internalized Homophobia and how our upbringing with “straight gender-roles” might influence our life as out-and-proud adult gay men. It’s a fascinating topic, which has certainly a lot of truth and depth but at some level I could never really identify with all the theories…
I didn’t have to put much effort in telling my parents I was gay, because I was caught at age 13. It was July 2007 and I had just finished exams. I had recently met a 17 year old guy online for the first time and I was planning to go see him. He was…
(1)Inconsciemment. Une image et un idéal. Un critère et de la brume dans les idées. Se battre avec la foi qu’on a de soi. La forme dont on rêve. Le rêve à atteindre. Ne jamais s’en approcher. Ou plutôt, très lentement. Sournoisement. Et quand on pense tendre vers elle, se sentir encore plus misérable. De…
When I chose to pose for photographers and represent myself through pictures, I realized that part of it was because I always considered myself as the cerebral type, and I felt like I completely lacked of physical spontaneity. I can be a bit nerd sometimes, and modeling brought me a certain lightness, a frivolity that…
I am not good at quickies, either when it comes to photo shoot or sex. It’s this lack of intimacy, minimum effort for two people to get to a slight bit of each other, and this “come (cum) and go” formula that to me are very off-putting. However, like all things in life, it happens,…
I always lived in an appreciative, yet distant relation to spirituality and religion. I’m not baptized, not part of any specific religious group „by default“. My parents are even adamant atheists.I grew up in a christian environment, in a mixed protestant and catholic region in central Germany. Hills, forests, villages, churches. My Kindergarten was protestant,…
Today, I can say that I’m a happy person. Some years ago, when I thought I was happy, I wasn’t happy at all. For a long time I was a “perfect” person, an excellent student, great in sports, a lovely boyfriend, the kindest son and brother. I would do whatever the society wanted me to…
We all have a very different story when it comes to addictions, so rather than talking about what made me fall into the excesses of chemsex (and heaven knows there are plenty of good and bad reasons: curiosity, low self-esteem, lack of opportunities for self-realization, breakups…), I want to talk about the ways I found…
A few years ago, I discovered Exaequo through a « Let’s Talk » event on the undetectable status. I got invited by a friend and couldn’t stay quiet because I was fed up with everyone’s negativity. After the event, Exaequo asked me to volunteer and spread my message and I was happy to join them!…
